I'll be turning 54 next Tuesday. I've had inverted T waves whenever I have to do a EKG. I've also had Nuclear stress testing, cardiac caths, and other test and they show normal. But I'm more nervous about it now than I was 20 years ago. So many of my friends have had heart attacks, or strokes and I've lost way to many other friends because of this and other "silent illnesses". I'm glad I'm still here, but I just don't enjoy the quality of life I used to. I can't relax because my mind wanders about problems happening now and that may come up in the future. Anxiety, my biggest problem. So much stuff, and trying to handle most of it on my own. I keep it inside, not good I know, but why worry someone else with your stuff when they have stuff of their own?
Next year, my twins will be 29 and my youngest girl will be 19 after that I'll have 30 year old children! And my youngest will be 20! Kids make you see just how old you are. But I thank God I'm still here with them and them with me.
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